busy busy busy. i need a break!

ok.. last night, i did some mad crazy packing. my floor was entirely covered with clothes. it was a nightmare. i had no idea where to start. so finally i stuffed 1/2 of my wardrobe into a huge bag, and the zipper was bursting open. it was pretty bad. so after wrestling with the bag a bit, i got it to close again. that bag is done. phew!

i still have my smaller bag, that is a little too small. it doesnt fit everything i need to get in there! AH! maybe i need to upgrade to a bigger bag. basically, this bag has everything that is not clothes in it.

so by the time i was done with what i got done, it was 1:30 am. and i proceeded to not fall asleep till 3 and wake up at 6:30. wow, i think im insomniac or something. when i woke up, i was mad dizzy. bcuz i realised that i hadn't ate a thing for 3 days straight. and i didn't even notice till then bcuz i had no appetite. but i was feeling shaky so i had something to eat, then left.

so i woke up and went to work. the baby was surprisingly good... he was happy and cute and everything. good last day. but i left with a mad crazy migrane.

my mom picked me up... to take me straight to the doctors. with a HEADACHE and a cold. but i wasn't going to get better, i was going to get a HEPATITIS SHOT!!! it was so mortifying. i wanted to die.

so i walked into there and was just miserable... i just did not want a needle of any kind entering my body.

it was like a walk of death into the office. i was pissed off and feeling like i was caught in a stampede of elephants. then i was sitting on the bench, and the thought of a shot was just freaking me out. so i was like, crying.  and the guy came in, and he wasn't even giving me a shot, and i already had my eyes closed. he was like... you can open your eyes, im just taking your temperature. my bad.

then the moment of horror... i made my mom hold my hand and my eyes were clenched shut, like someone was about to amputate an arm or something. then he just stabbed the needle in my arm and i felt stuff just going into my arm! it was nasty. i refused to look at my arm. he didn't put a bandaid on it. i was terrified. i didn't wanna move my arm at all, or think of a hole in my arm. he told me i couldn't leave for 15 minutes bcuz he had to make sure i didn't stop breathing on my way out or something. that made me feel dandy! knowing i could just stop breathing! so then we left and while i was walking i could feel the air going into the hole, and i knew exactly where it was just from that. so i got a bandaid when i got home. then i felt like i was gonna pass out so i just went on the couch and layed there in a daze for hours.

finally i snapped out of it and went to the store with april. i managed to get $60 worth of crap, for lake george from walgreens. so after that, we came back and i made dinner. and that is it.

so i still have a headache dispite the many tylenol i took tonite. and im still coughing my lungs out even though ive been taking medicine since monday and ive been sick for over a week and a half. what is this shit?!

well this is prolly the last time i write for... 19 days. headin off to lake george. i can't wait!!!!!! then road triippppp! woohoo! i cant wait to get outta this town. it's gonna be bittersweet though. i won't get to see alot of ppl before they go to college. and that makes me really sad. and jeremy leaves for college this thursday. that sux soooo bad, this is really the first summer that he is not gonna be there for over half of the time. it just won't be as fun! and april will leave early too.  so it'll just be really weird. kinda creepy, we've been going here forever, and everyone's always been here... i remember when we used to play silly games like rock bowling and stuff. and now she is going to college. that is so weird. its freaking me out.

i hafta shower now and do some more packing etc.. hopefully get to see some frenz tonite, and get to bed early. gonna wake up for a 7 am car ride.

gonna go... everyone better call me or leave me lots of emails.

angell468@aol.com

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